Search This Blog

Tuesday, 24 April 2007

Fixing The Coward's Way Out


Tired at the end of the day, exhausted beyond words now, devestated once I escape the flourescent lights and the evening comes down. Too many tyhings to do and not enough time to do them. I don't know how everybody else seems to cope so effortlessly, seamlessly, their lives stitched together in one seemly hole.
Irritable, restless and discontent, that was the default position, and nothing was ever going to change that. I couldn't be certain where it was all coming from. Staking out the rich always made us unpopular in the surrounding neighbourhoods; affronted that we should encroach on their moneyed certainties, their expensive peace, their luxurious houses so large you could almost call them compounds.
I ached with uncertainty, but not with love, and it showed. This is a tree just up from my house at Tambar Springs. I've been working enough overtime to get away for a couple of days. The endless pressure was wiping out my integrity; I just wanted to survive till knock-off; that was all. The pain was creeping through my body, twists and turns; I just wanted to reverse the clock, grow younger by the day, and a simple thing like nature stood in my way. We're a short-lived species I would say; and how true that is, as the weeks flee before us, rippling over the interchanges.
THE BIGGER STORY:
The Age:
Rowe's Todays at Nine are over

Paul Heinrichs
May 6, 2007

Jessica Rowe.

PRESENTER Jessica Rowe will not return to Channel Nine's Today show or the network.
Nine yesterday worked out a deal in which Rowe is believed to have been paid out, following months of cat-and-mouse games with network executives.
The star had been reluctant to return to the program after the birth of her first child. Executives also realised that Rowe's appointment to the breakfast show last year has been a failure.
She joined Nine at the start of 2006 following a bitter legal dispute with her former employer, Network Ten. The Today program has failed to rate against Seven's Sunrise, whose comperes, Melissa Doyle and David Koch, are nominated for Logies tonight.

Winters of Discontent


I loved The Winter of Our Discontent, Steinbeck. Here's a speil from Amazon, I don't know why: "The Winter of our Discontent" was published in 1961, just before Steinbeck received the Nobel Prize in 1962. The story is set in the late 1950s in New Baytown, a small (fictitious) New York -New England town which, Steinbeck tells us, had flourished during the whaling days of the mid-19th century. The main protagonist of the book is Ethan Allen Hawley. Ethan ("eth" to his friends is descended from early pirates and whaling captains. His family had lost its capital through speculative business ventures during WW II and Ethan, with has backround and his Harvard education, is reduced to working as a clerk in a small grocery store he once owned. Marullo, an Italian immigrant, owns the store and calls Ethan "kid"."
Sydney is hot. Shorts and short sleave shirt weather. Interviewing Erin Pizzy later today for radio. She fascinates me. She has just returned from Bahrain where she opened a refuge for domestic violence victims, and says there, unbrainwashed, when men present they are not treated with contempt, disbelief, ridicule or laughter. The West has a lot to answer for. Self-loathing of the wanking class. How sceptical we had become. The age moved faster now than it had ever been before; and the currents and circumstance were misplaced, the courage with which we invested our actions.
Sydney is hot, beach weather at the end of autumn, and people are fresh faced and in threateningly good health from walking around the cliffs. I've felt absolutely drained by evening; intense calm under intense difficulty. This is the view from the Tambar Springs Hotel, fiddled with a bit on the camera. The Bolt Hole, surrounded by ferals and the rural poor. A job doesn't seem to cross their minds. Shame dissolved into action, clutching at tomorrow is another day as if the old saying was our only true saviour. Perhaps, some days, it really was.
THE BIGGER STORY:
John Howard, too, is much in the news, although the tone is decidedly different:

Howard offers to pay fine for skipping Zimbabwe tourRadio New Zealand, New Zealand - 4 hours agoBut the Prime Minister John Howard signalled a hardening of his stand against the troubled country ruled for 27 years by President Robert Mugabe. ...Howard ready to pay price of tour pullout The StandardHoward offersto pay tour penalty NEWS.com.auChristian Joins Howard In Condemning Mugabe, as Cricket Tour in ... Christian Today -- AustraliaEurosportall 130 news articles »
The Age
Howard decides to bend on WorkChoicesABC Online, Australia - 13 hours agoJOHN HOWARD: What this proves is that I'ma Prime Minister who listens to people's concerns. I mean, people have said to me that they are not themselves ...PM ‘buckles’ on IR laws Border MailLeaders do the workplace shuffle Brisbane TimesHoward's jobs nip and tuck Melbourne Herald SunStuff.co.nz - Courier Mailall 150 news articles »
Sydney Morning Herald
Tit-for-tat week with Labor the winnerBrisbane Times, Australia - 9 hours agoDid John Howard insist Heffernan publicly apologise to Julia Gillard? No, he didn't. Did Gillard or Kevin Rudd or the then Labor leader Kim Beazley utter a ...What price a snap election? The Canberra TimesComments ‘hurt public’ Border MailAussie senator backs down after childless woman jibe Gulf TimesOcala.com - Sunday Times.auall 325 news articles »
CricInfo.com
Zimbabwe Cricket exposed by John Howard's actionCricInfo.com, UK - 27 minutes agoThe news that John Howard, Australia's prime minister, has offered to pay any fine levied on Cricket Australia should it refuse to send a side to Zimbabwe ...
Melbourne Herald Sun
Scouts say ‘tanks’ for Howard’s $17mBorder Mail, Australia - 1 hour agoAnnouncing the Year of the Scout honour at a Melbourne scout hall, Prime Minister John Howard said the movement would receive $17.7 million for tanks at its ...Howard a smash with kids Melbourne Herald SunScouts get $17.7m for rainwater tanks Brisbane Times2008 the Year of the Scout NEWS.com.auNinemsnall 21 news articles »
Angus Reid Global Monitor
Punters back HowardMelbourne Herald Sun, Australia - 13 hours agoPrime Minister John Howard's odds have firmed for the first time since Kevin Rudd took Labor's reins. At the start of the week, Mr Rudd was the punters' pal ...Pragmatic Howard once again refuses to be fenced in by finer points The AustralianFriedman Notices Australian ‘Big Dry’ It's Getting Hot In HereBudget travellers Courier MailThe Age - The Australianall 18 news articles »
The Age
Gracious exit as Campbell retiresThe Age, Australia - 13 hours agoPrime Minister John Howard forced Senator Campbell to resign in March after it emerged that he had had a 20-minute meeting in his office with disgraced ...Ex-minister Campbell to quit Daily TelegraphSenator Campbell to quit after 17 years in Politics ABC OnlineCampbell quits for lifestyle, not Burke Bendigo Advertiserall 56 news articles »
John Howard is too good for usBrisbane Times, Australia - 3 May 2007John Howard knows it for sure, but of course he can't say so out loud. He tried. He did his dog-whistle thing, saying Heff's entitled to his view, ...For Pete’s sake, this has got to be his last budget Border Mailall 3 news articles »
Sydney Morning Herald
The power behind the PMSydney Morning Herald, Australia - 12 hours agoArthur Sinodinos was there for one of the lowest moments of John Howard's life. It was May 10, 1989, and the day before Howard had been deposed as leader of ...Secret of power, from PM's lieutenant Sydney Morning HeraldWheat groups to discuss single desk models in Melbourne ABC Onlineall 4 news articles »
Australian Prime Minister John Howard Lauds Glenn McGrath As An ...Cricket World Cup Latest, UK - 3 May 2007Australia Prime Minister John Howard on Thursday welcomed the World Cup winning team back from the Caribbean at a breakfast reception in Sydney. ...

Passing Layered Time


This is a picture of my grandmother, Sarah Higginbottom, who died a decade or so after nursing my grandfather through a grim death.
The main thing about Nanna was that she had brought up six kids through the Depression, with an errant husband who made the hard times harder. She could make something out of nothing, was an entry in the family tree, and with that many kids to feed she really did have to make something out of nothing. I was her first grandson, although there were certainly others to follow. Most of her children also had lots of children. Uncle Alan had six, for example.
She was completely uneducated and incredibly kind; an absolute whizz at crosswords her greatest sign of untapped intelligence. She had worked in Sydney for a stint, as a teenager, but most of it, during the 30s and 40s, was at Uki; at a time when these were truly isolated, picturesque, north coast dairy towns. Her first child was a stillbirth, a girl, and her second, also a girl, died of dyptheria at six months. Another one of her children was to predecease her; the one who took too many Bex powders and drank too much.
Alcohol was always to figure in that family, at least amongst the men. It was bizarre the lengths squabbling couples would go to, there in the tortured days, and her life hadn't always been easy, not with Pop, not in those days when you never left, just never.
Getting her licence in her sixties, pottering around in a tiny little Morris, Pop yabbering in her ear to watch out for this, watch out for that, testing the patience of a saint.
For a while she worked as the cleaner at our school, Newport Primary; that was in the days before menial work had gained such odour; and we were immensely proud of her; hanging around afterwards, helping, fascinated; or skipping off to the park below the school with the swings that went ever higher and higher; where dark underground stone structures at the bottom, near the trees below the swings, clung in my dreams as if they were real. They never went away, and I was always surprised, when searching in daylight, to find they weren't actually there.
All that dripping water, the wet dank stone, the dark recesses, ominous men standing at urinals; lurking; that was the sort of head I had as a kid; and she was always kind, and proud, even though when I got clever and went to university we couldn't talk politics or anything, really, it didn't matter.
When I was homeless at times, during university years, they would always put me up or give me a feed, her and Pop, although they were a long way from the city where I thought my destiny lay.
I've never been to her gave. I wish I had.
THE BIGGER STORY:
Kevin Rudd, Opposition leader looking good in the polls, is everywhere:

The Age
Howard's worplace fairness test a fake, says RuddThe Australian, Australia - 8 hours ago... to Australian Workplace Agreements from Monday is a "fake safety net with holes big enough to drive a Mack truck through," Labor leader Kevin Rudd says. ...Rudd's rise EconomistRudd, the great divider Andrew Bolt Melbourne Herald SunRudd says no guarantees for Telstra NEWS.com.auThe West Australianall 44 news articles »
The Age
Voters are big business for Rudd, tooBrisbane Times, Australia - 18 hours agoFirst, big business felt betrayed by Rudd Labor this week. Kevin Rudd spent years systematically visiting the executive suites and boardrooms of Australia ...Thunder over the workplace The AgeWe’ll give profits to workers, says Rudd The West AustralianLabor drags chain on IR Daily TelegraphThe West Australian - Brisbane Timesall 188 news articles »
Rudd's breezy responseThe Australian, Australia - 20 hours agoKEVIN Rudd faced up to the inevitable dubious jokes at FM radio station B105 in Brisbane yesterday morning. Spinning the so-called Wheel of Inappropriate ...Toilet humour fails to faze Rudd The Ageall 22 news articles »
Rudd's girl demands short, sweet speechNinemsn, Australia - 7 hours agoSelf-confessed motor mouth Kevin Rudd has promised to keep his speech at his daughter's wedding short and sweet on strict instructions from the bride-to-be. ...
Rudd sets sights on youth voteABC Online, Australia - 3 May 2007Federal Labor Leader Kevin Rudd was on FM radio, regaling listeners with his views on reality TV and music and answering some cheeky questions about some of ...
Glossing over Kevin Rudd's Catholic school daysEureka Street, Australia - 2 May 2007A recent article in the Sydney Morning Herald contended that Kevin Rudd’s experiences as a junior secondary school student at Brisbane’s Marist College ...
The Age
Rudd backs 'no mistakes' CornesAdvertiser Adelaide, Australia - 2 May 2007OPPOSITION Leader Kevin Rudd yesterday attempted to defend Labor's recruitment of Nicole Cornes, declaring no mistakes had been made in the first days of ...Cornes no mistake, says Rudd Advertiser AdelaideTough start for Cornes camp Border MailCombet to make Canberra tilt official The AgeMelbourne Herald Sun - ABC Onlineall 10 news articles »
Soldiers in Iraq need exit plan: RuddThe Age, Australia - 3 May 2007Opposition Leader Kevin Rudd has offered his sympathy to an Australian soldier injured in Iraq by a roadside bomb who has now returned home for treatment. ...
Goward attacks state funding for Rudd climate studyIBN News, Australia - 2 May 2007"With no findings expected until well after the federal election, you can be sure that should Kevin Rudd lose, the study will mysteriously stop," Ms Goward ...
Rudd, Howard and the 21st century bugCrikey (subscription), Australia - 2 May 2007This is the 21st century," said Kevin Rudd in order to dismiss trade union concerns about his IR policy. Under Rudd, everything is to be 21st century. ...

Forsaken


This is my grandfather John Henry Higginbottom. There are very few pictures of him around. He died a good 25 years ago. This generation was all a product of the depression. He was tiny, in the way of that generation. My clearest memory of him is when he used to visit when we were kids, at Wallamutta Road in Newport. In those days, before it became the trendy northern beaches and people flocked in their tens of thousands, it was an isloated place; beauitful in the richly coloured way of the Australian bush, koalas still common in the treetops, the light catching the feathers of an escaped budgerigar after it had been swooped on bny a kookaburra. To my memory; overlaid by many things, it had always been a nightmare against green; a violent, overbearing silence taunting the agony of adolescence.
Life in the city was jagged and confronting, but this is not where they came from. My father, in the airforce at the time, tilted the wings of his bomber towards their house on the hillside in Uki, a tiny village on the north coast of NSW. The neighbours complained of rattled crockery. Pop, as we called John Henry, was, by all the reports of his children, was alcoholic; and their stories of growing up were not just of poverty, but of all the problems that went with that, thrown dinners, fetching him out of the pub, hiding money, stolen pocket money, the difficulty of even getting pins for sowing.
The other side of the family had once owned land, before losing it in the depression, but this side was always deadpoor white.
"Let's face it, he was not a very nice man," said one of my uncles after his death. But I remember him as a kindly, older, little man, who much to our astonishment and fascination, would always be the first one up if he ever came to stay. We would find him on our verandah, the one that dad had built and looked down a steep valley of palm trees. My greatest triumph as a child was to set the entire valley alight, for once a fire got going in the tops of one, it would jump. No houses were burnt, but they were endangered, and I got into an enormous amount of trouble. Pop would be there, on the verandah, with his first beer of the day, sipping, sipping, having a quiet smoke. He liked to get a quiet one in before anyone got up to disturb him.
Even though they now lived in housing commission units at Narrabeen, not far from the beach, he grew tomatoes and beans in the small amount of dirt provided, and would always welcome you with the cosy tenderness of the bar. He was always gambling, smoking, drinking, just in a more subdued manner as he got older. One of his proudest moments was taking me to the public bar of the Antler, I think it was called, where he could introduce his grandson. Our grandmother, much to hers and everybody else's pride, got her car licence in her 60s, and he would sit in the driver's seat issuing an endless stream of instructions. Everyone regarded her as a saint, for more reasons than one.
Whatever his faults, he carried the kindness of the country and the rough camaraderie of the bar with him.

Sunday, 22 April 2007

Chaos In The Slipstream


Up early, the city already busy. Hectic Days. The Dawn Service. The Lives of Others. It poured rain; and this year people brought their chidlren. It is a great Australian tradition, they say, good coverage of the bleakness of war, none of it playing well in Iraq. The Festival of Kevin is going on down at Darling Harbour, where opposition leader Rudd is acting like the next Prime Minister. Government offices and taxis in the street, prints of Streeton, microphones, ministers, and in the end he felt saner than he had felt for a very long time.
The contrast couldn't have been more great; together and happy, enjoying the day, or collapsed into longing and a hideous pointless destructive despair. He listened to the stories of others; and they all said the same thing. I once was lost and now am found.
There were different gaps now, in the mood of the country; the tones of the debate and the increasing crowds in the street. The old time country was lost; but the rest of the world too had moved rapidly on; he wasn't giving up just yet. Was that as profound as it got? Some days.
THE BIGGER STORY:

Advance 100


This is a photograph by Bob Finn.
I'm trying to get a few words out of former Prime Minister Gough Whitlam, now in his 80s and an heroic figure for my entire generation.
It was one of those rare nights in Sydney, when all the various strands of life seem to come together and we are at the heart of where we're meant to be.
The event was called Advance 100, which aimed to bring together 100 of the most successful Australian expatriates, bring them back to Australia. There was no shortage of money behind the project. One of the wines for the evening, held at the NSW Art Gallery, was a Grange, which sells at $475 a bottle.
The aims were not entirely clear; basically to bring together a whole lot of talent and see if the synergy of it all could produce beneficial outcomes for the country as a whole.
There truly were some incredible people there.
Even in the picture above, there's not just Gough, who these days is regarded as a living national treasure, but behind him a doctor who got a Nobel prize in medicine for genetic related work, and a Dame with 24 honorary degrees; provost of this, Chancellor of that; a high flyer in some of the most esteemed academic corridors of England. You must be very bright, I said, when told of a sampling of her many achievements. So they tell me, she said, smiling in a completely ordinary way, as if I had complimented her on her scone making rather than her astonishing record of academic triumphs.
Gough, once a media tart par excellence, is harder to get words out of these days. He's 80 after all. But he is still a fixture of Sydney life. The great man is wheeled into events in his wheelchair, but at least he gets out and about, which is more than you can say for a lot of his contemporaries.
To those of us who became politically aware in the 1970s, he truly was a hero of the times; the first progressive prime minister after years of conservative government. Of more immediate impact on those of us facing being sent to Vietnam, he was the man who abolished conscription.
Before the formal dinner began, there were drinks and fiddly things for the assembled crowd, handsome waiters, male and female, in starched uniforms serving the hundred plus guests and specially assembled; "a veritable who's who" to usej the old cliche.
Caught in conversation, pad in hand, I grabbed quotes off whoever crossed my path, as one does. Doing my bit, I asked one not particularly interesting looking man for his details and a quote. "I outsold JK Rowling last year," he declares amiably, and I look at him in astonishment. "What do you do?" Who could possibly outsell Harry Potter?
As it turned out he wrote textbooks on how to learn English; and had sold something like 35 million copies in a single year. South America was opening up as a market, he declared, I sold a million in Chile alone. The millions add up, he said, smiling; showing, I thought, the self-confidence or personal security that being a millionaire can bring.
I bet the millions add up, I thought. He was very nice; I basically resent the rich, for whatever reason, but he was very likable nonetheless.
After doing my job; it's hard with these sorts of events to get a news thread out of them, you basically just take the first thing that strikes you; the most interesting paper, the most striking combination of people. Having been around so long, if it interets me it probably interests everybody. Much of it is instinctive. In this case it was Gough with some of the country's most successful expats.
After protesting that he couldn't possibly say anything, finally he did. It's very good to see them back, he said, as if they were all part of his personal flock. And in a way, they probably were.
In one of those strange circumstances that befall journalists, all the seats were taken except the one next to the host, Geoffrey Robertson, famous for his Hypothetical television program and a number of other triumphs.
You couldn't have got a better seat if you had spent the last six months conniving.
He bounced up and down, introducing various people, giving small and entertaining speeches.
He was, in that urbane highly sophisticated London way that successful Australians adopt, very easy to talk to; and having had a few of the expensive wines, garrulous.
I knew his wife, Kathy Lette, of Puberty Blues fame, from the old days when we both worked at the Sydney Morning Herald.
She embraced me effusively, glad to see an old face, old, literally, in my case, and I said: "You've done so well, I'm proud of you."
She beamed, it was a nice, generous thing to say; she had gone on to be famous, successful, rich, and I was still just a general news reporter basically on the same old rounds.
The fact that I so clearly knew his wife made Geoffrey relax, and he was happy to chat about newspapers, politics, gossip, the apparent decline of the Howard government.
How's Blair going? I asked.
Dreadful, he declared, offering the distaste of London's intelligentsia.
What about Gordon Brown, I asked, it's hard to get a fix on him here in Australia.
We really are an isolated, sparsely populated country on the fringes of absolutely nowhere; particular now when cheap travel and the Internet have transformed most of the world into a bustling, fascinating theme park; and I remember a BBC film crew following a group of African pygmies through Singapore airport.
Brown is a very impressive, Robertson declared. He was around for dinner last Friday. I think he's a very substantial person.
Only Robertson could say such things and get away with it, and mean it.
The after dinner speaker was Clive James, who went on at such enormous lengths, and with such a volume of verbage, that most people were sighing with exasperation by the end of it all.
But other than that, and my own internal desolation at the end of a very long year; it was a splendid event in spendid surrounds; and Sydney, for once, felt at the heart of the world's intellectual and cultural currents; superb food, superb paintings; superb company. Where else did you want to be?
THE BIGGER STORY
TODAY ONLINE

The baby-faced butcher
International censure as footage of Taliban's child executioner surfaces
ISLAMABAD — The Taliban of Afghanistan is notorious for its brutality. But the terrorist group seems to have taken barbarism to new heights by using a child as an executioner — and releasing a videotape of him beheading an "American spy".
.The video has sparked international criticism, with the United Nations Children's Fund (Unicef) condemning the incident as "a terrible example of how children can be used by adults to commit heinous crimes in times of conflict", reported The Guardian.
.In the videotape, now circulating in Pakistan, the boy (picture), who appears to be no older than 12, is seen standing over a blindfolded man, brandishing a long knife. Wearing a combat jacket, oversized sneakers and a white headband, the boy denounces the man in a high-pitched voice. "He is an American spy. This is his fate."
.The baby-faced executioner then beheads his victim.
.The gory execution was egregious even by the standards of the Taliban, which has killed hundreds of civilians in suicide bombings and regularly executes suspected American collaborators.
.But this is the first time the Taliban, who ruled most of Afghanistan from 1996 before being ousted by United States- led forces in 2001, has used a child executioner. Even in war-torn Iraq, where such executions are common, children have never been used for such tasks.
.In a statement condemning the video, Unicef said: "The use of children under 15 years of age — as is apparent in this case — is a war crime under international law."

Here In Lies The Answer


Back in the city, worried about the end, nursing the wounds of age. The doctor says I have an 800% higher risk than normal of having a stroke on my current blood pressure, so I've just had to do a battery of blood tests. Going to start walking to work, doing healthy things, eating better, all that stuff. I never worried about any of these things, never expected to live beyond 30, astonished still about being marooned in the future. Now I'm not that keen to say goodbye.

The world was going to end in the 1970s, and everything backed up the prophecy; the decay of moral standards, the Beetles, who came to Australia all those years ago, were a definite sign of the decay of civilisation, the collapse of moral standards. All those days, they seemed like eternities, parked outside the barber shop, my mother begging me to just go in and get a haircut, what did it matter. Because she knew my father would thrash me, and we were all sick of the thrashings.

In contrast to some childhoods it wasn't so bad, just a nightmare against the deep green of the landscape, frozen and frightened of the big man; but it all spills down the generations, the genetic predisposition to heart attacks, to addiction, the silence of the poor white trash, the lack of engagement, the conviction that whatever was happening out there, it was not for your benefit. So live quietly, simply, cheaply, stay calm and extend your life.

Monday, 9 April 2007

Coming To An End


Holidays are coming to an end. In Gunnedah looping back on the way to Sydney. It might be autumn and heading into winter, but it's hot here; jumpers off by 8am; all talk of the drought. This is a picture of Carmel Tebbit's election night party; where I went with Trevor. It seems, though it was only a month ago, like a cyclone and a life away; that night; dropping the kids and dropping Polly at the airport and the rain deluging down; as we ran in crisis when the taxi didn't come; Trevor showing up; Redfern and chaos and meaning; that was that night, as Labor romped it back in and the Labor faithful celebrated each minor triumph in what was always a preordained victory.
Labor might have left no stone unturned, but they were never going to lose, not with an opposition as hapless as the one they faced.
The words of the mass killer, with their Thus Spoke Zarathustra tones, the powerful Nitschke like ravings, and we all shuddered and took pleasure in our tiny uneventful lives. What more could anyone want? I said aloud, not even to a dog, surveying my dirt poor patch and the crumbling house and thinking: no one can get me hear, and in my life there's nothing more that I want than not to be got at. It's a strange point to reach, not of hiding, but of acceptances. All those crazy 3ams, when nothing was reached and nothing could comfort me and there was no protection from the fundamnetal truth: you were just not right. You were born not right. The observer role, adopted as your only defence, was in itself stripped away as an artiface, and there was, indeed, nothing but malformation and peculiarity. Just not right. And then he came back from the distant shore, the sun shone and things were, really, just not that bad. What more could a man want? I asked at the Melama or however you spell it roadway cafe I've been every morning, putting out the weetbix and mixing it with Nutrigrain. Like your weetbix, don't you love? the plain, kindly, no-nonsense, gossipy woman behind the counter said. What more could a man want? I repeated.
THE BIGGER STORY:
The gunman who killed 32 people at a U.S. university Monday, before killing himself, mailed a chilling video to a U.S. TV network during the massacre. The package was received by the NBC TV network from Virginia Tech student Cho Seung-Hui. VOA's David Dyar reports the package contained a rambling video in which the gunman engaged in an angry tirade about hedonism and rich kids along with several pictures of him holding guns. NBC played excerpts from the video on its evening newscast. The gunman is seen talking angrily in the video in what the network described as an incoherent manifesto.
“Did you want to inject as much misery in our lives as you can, just because you can? You had everything you wanted. Your Mercedes wasn’t enough, you brats, your golden necklaces weren’t enough, you snobs, your trust fund wasn’t enough ...
“You had a hundred billion chances and ways to have avoided today,” according to excerpts aired on Wednesday night by NBC.
“But you decided to spill my blood. You forced me into a corner and gave me only one option. The decision was yours. Now, you have blood on your hands that will never wash off.”
“Jesus loved crucifying me,” he said at another point. “He loved inducing cancer in my head, terrorising my heart and ripping my soul all this time.”

Some of the pictures released by NBC showed Cho brandishing guns. One picture showed him holding two guns, one in each hand in a firing pose. In another picture, Cho points the barrel of the gun directly at the camera. NBC said it received the package Wednesday, but it contained a stamp indicating it was mailed about an hour and 45 minutes after he first opened fire on the university campus, killing two students. Many of Cho's comments were laced with profanity and were spoken in an angry monotone voice.
"I didn't have to do it. I could have left. I could have fled," he was heard saying. "But now I am no longer running. If not for me, for my children and my brothers and sisters that you (expletive). I did it for them,"
“I didn’t have to do this,” he said. “I could have left. I could have fled. But no.”

These Moments of Glory


There was much to struggle with, and much to be uncertain about, as the world examined the words of the young man who went out and shot 32 people in the US's worst massacre.
Does anyone really think any politician in this country could care less what was happening in 50 or a 100 years time? They care about their own survival, they care about feathering their own nest, they care about furthering their own ideological positions; and if climate change can help to serve all those purposes, to make them appear busy, important, capable of tackling the big issues, of appearing to work in a spirit of self-sacrifice, it was a very convenient vehicle to hang your hat on.
And for goodness sake, in reality, as the economy harbouring China and India's 1,700 million plus people what possible real difference could a remote and sparsely populated country like Australia really make?
It was hardly the first time that the vicious self-interest that has come to rule Sydney has been paraded as a social justice issue.
The arrival of climate change as the new state religion came at just the right time for those seeking belief. The previous state sponsored religion of multi-culturalism was falling apart under the weight of its own contradictions and hypocricies. The government of the day was moving to change the core tenets of the over-arching belief system, away from m-m-m-multiplicity to unity.
There were radical Islamic groups in Western Sydney preaching, in tax payer funded public halls, against the evils of capitalism, communism, homesexuality, of Christianity, Budhism, Hinduism and the Jews; and yes, against the evils of multi-culturalism itself; along the lines of "if you believe in everything, you believe in nothing". While white men on radio exercise the freedoms of democracy faced being charged with hate crimes, no such threats faced the brewing neo-fascist movements in the suburban heartlands.
Few commentators, and even fewer journalists, struggled to point out the complexity of the debate over climate change, global warming, and man's role in the ever changing face of the planet. The media, like so many other aspects of Australian life, has fallen for the cult of the new. There are very few old journalists, and even frewer happy old journalists. A profession with an astonishingly high staff turnover, you don't have to stay long to become regarded as methuselah. There is no historical memory in almost any of the nation's newsrooms. Most of the reporters are young, in their 20s or early 30s, and are happy to report everything on the face of it. When
Every newsroom in the country
What will be next?
Just when you thought it couldn't get worse, when it was impossible to becme more cloakingly, cloyingly converted, the Sydney Morning Herald published a green newspaper, literally, aimed at promoting the WWF's Earth Hour, where we could all feel good about saving the planet by turning our lights off for an hour.
This followed on from their previous attempt at saturation conversion, when they produced a pink Herald for breast cancer, as if men didn't get cancer and didn't read the newspaper.
But in the history of Austrlaian journalism, the publication of a green edition by the SMH, once regularly listed as one of the top 20 broadsheets in the world, was a milestone in the abandonment of perspective. Whle campaigning journalism is all very well and good, running
Perhaps David Salter described it best, when he called it "a burst of vacuous symbolism designed to flatter the moral vanities of the SMH readership while turning a fast buck behind their backs."

Friday, 6 April 2007

Finishing Strands

Can't get the pictures to work, don't know why. Can't seem to get much to work at all. Still in the local library at Gunnedah. I need a laptop more than anything. Well almost more than anything, beyond decency, moraility, a retread of the head, a moral update and plastic surgery. Went and looked at a dog; this woman had 40 dogs on the outskirts of town. Well it would have been 39 if I had taken one called Timmie, which I liked but I'm not quite sure if I'm taking on a lot of work and it's the right thing to do. My backyard in Redfern is not exactly huge; and most of them were working dogs called Coollies, which throw virtually any colour. Timmie was a working dog that was hopeless; and for some reason I liked him. Have to finish this damn column, I don't know why I let myself get sucked into these things. All very well if it paid, but it doesn't. Holidays are coming to an end; it's Thursday and I have to be back at work on Sunday. 9.30am. The dream is over and reality comes crunching down. The news is full of the massacre in America, here nothing much happens, nothing much at all. I've bought some patches to stop smoking, again; if I had a penny for every fresh start I had made in life...

Here goes another try at Hunting in Packs: Not sure of the word count and can't get Word to work on this computer:

During the last year, in the cool depths of the media currents, a giant shoal of fish changed direction all at once, to the right, or was it the left, they veered sharply, as if controlled by one mind.

It's hard to believe that only a year ago to be green was entirely passe, painting the protagnoist as a deep scrub hippy who should have stayed in Nimbin.

But that, in this sped up world of high-speed multi-media communication and sweeping intellectual fads lasting barely nano-seconds, was an eternity ago.

Way back then, in the dark ages of 2006, there was no surer way to turn off a news editor than to label your issues environmental, yourself a greenie and to prattle on about the future of the planet. Press releases from Greenpeace, WWF, Landcare, the Greens and all the other worthy groups large and small were barely, or rarely, even glanced at as they made their way from the fax machine to the garbage bin; of even less interest than most of the dross that makes up the snow storm of press releases passing through the nation's news rooms on a daily basis.

How times have changed. Now it's a crime to leave your kitchen light on by accident, for to do so it to burn up fossil fuels unnecessarily and threaten the very future of the planet. Think of the lives, the species, the shorelines you could have personally protected, if only you hadn't left that light on while you went to work.


From the start global warming, or climate change, was a gift to politicians. It made them look and sound important. You knew when the Prime Minister John Howard, always one to sniff the political wind, started to talk about global warming that the tide had reached vote gathering proportions. Remember him declaring, as he went off to Vietnam a few months back, that in his meeting there with US President George Bush he would be discussing amongst other things serious issues such as climate change? Oh really? Was our PM really going to lecture the Americans on their excessive greenhouse gas emissions as they walked together through clipped gardens of their expensive hotels?

But that's not the point. All Howard and other politicians have had to do was to utter the words climate change to appear to be doing something about the single most vital issue facing the planet and its billions of inhabitants. Form a committee to discuss how best your government, department, association or kindergarten could best address climate change and by Golly, you were a hero.

For the media, too, it has been a gift; giving what were once fairly boring environmental stories a ring of importance which could guarantee them a run. Just as in the late 1980s every second story led with a green angle, driving voiceless farmers to despair, so, too, in 2007.


From the start global warming and its followers have shown serious signs of religious fervour. And indeed it was the perfect religion for the modern age. To be a good guy, to capture the high moral ground, to convert and become at one with a large and growing body of initiates, all you had to do was declare belief. It required no commitment, no training, no sacrifice or discomfort. A simple statement of belief; an expression of concern about the fate of the planet; and you could feel good about yourself. Just as the Reverend Al Gore could excuse the flaming lights around his mansion by passing the cost onto the poor through carbon credits; so practitioners of the new faith could serve penitence by turning their television off at the wall or by getting a different brand of petrol. It was easy, and perfect for the age.

It was in this atmosphere of heightened hysteria that Australia's Opposition leader Kevin Rudd could slam the Prime Minister John Howard as a climate change sceptic, and be treated seriously, as if being a sceptic was in itself an evil.

Nothing's working very well today. Going to have $5.00 silverside at the local Gunnedah pub and think about whether to get that dog.

I can't get the bloody column right and I can't get my thoughts straight. Had a long chat to the Tambar Springs Anglican priest yesterday; who's name is also John. In the end I confessed a moral lapse; as the sun set into the strangely deep silence of the bush; the occasional moaning of the cattle about all that can be heard. Some days nothing goes quite right; and this is one of them. At least the car hasn't broken down; and there's no wood to touch. Picking up Sam in Newcastle on the way back on Saturday; Henrietta is off at Hymack in the mountains around the Hawkesbury; now that really is strange country.

Climate Change

Posted by Picasa
This picture is in the horticultural fair at Chiang Mai. I loved it there. It seems a long way away already, in time and space, the cyclone of Sydney. At the community centre in Tambar Springs, which is known for being a bit different. As in, the locals are a pack of light fingered retarded alcoholic welfare dependent hillbillies who make Deliverance look like a picnic. Bit harsh, Cheryl, is what I'd say.
Have to write the Hunting in Packs column, this time on climate change and global warming, and the aim is to upset as many people as possible in order to stir up the letter writers. Here goes a draft:
During the last year, in the cool depths of the media currents, a giant shoal of fish changed direction all at once, to the right, or was it the left, they veered sharply, as if controlled by one mind.
It's hard to believe that only a year ago to be green was entirely passe, that there was no surer way to turn off a news editor than to label yourself a greenie or your issues environmental. Press releases from Greenpeace, WWF, the Greens and all the other worthy groups large and small were barely, or rarely, even glanced at as they made their way from the fax machine to the garbage bin; of even less interest than most of the dross that makes up the snow storm of press releases passing through the nation's news rooms on a daily basis.
Now it's a crime to leave your kitchen light on by , burning up fossil fuels unnecessarily and threatening the very future of the planet. Think of the lives, the species, the shorelines you could have personally protected, if only you hadn't left that light on.
From the start global warming, or climate change, was a gift to politicians. All they had to do was to utter the words to appear to be doing something about the single most important issue facing the planet and its billions of inhabitants. Form a committee to discuss how best your government, department, association or kindergarten could best address climate change and by Golly, you were a hero.
From the start global warming and its followers have shown serious signs of religious fervour. And indeed it was the perfect religion for the modern age. To be a good guy, to capture the high moral ground, to convert and become at one with a large and growing body of initiates, all you had to do was declare belief. It was in this atmosphere of heightened hysteria that Australia's Opposition leader Kevin Rudd could slam the Prime Minister John Howard as a climate change sceptic, and be treated seriously, as if being a sceptic was in itself an evil.

Wednesday, 4 April 2007

City Life


This is a picture of the kids with gay friends of mine, William and his Japanese friend Hugi, I have no idea how to spell that. The kids have grown up with gay people all their life; and must sometimes wonder about dad. I sometimes wonder myself! Both kids have known William all their life; and I got to know him first through his friend Steven.

I got to know Steven in the 70s, when he was living with another man and at university this was a subject of great curiosity and approval. David Bowie had made bisexuality entirely acceptable, if not desirable, and everyone wanted to push every boundary they could think of.

In some ways, in its great indifference to the affairs of others, Australia has always been a tolerant country. As in, I don't care what you do as long as you're not doing it to me. In some ways it was a red neck nightmare; but these days it seems entirely out of vogue to bash up on poofters, even in your blokiest of pubs. What was once the foundation of identity, a way of attacking or undermining the mainstream, a way of being with fundamentally revolutionary power, has become just another variation of human behaviour; and little more.

Despite their occasionally bohemian upbringing the kids are showing no signs of being gay; they seem to find it rather odd. I suppose, in the literal minds of adolescents, their first thoughts go to what happens to the pink bits. Anyway, they've always been fond of William, and his breakup with Steven the subject of sad gossip and speculation. Why would anyone split up when they seemed so happy together?

Well William seems even happier now; and nobody is to judge. I'm sitting in the public library at Gunnedah. Did the radio show intro this morning; and the interview I had organised with Celia Ashlie, author of a new book He'll Be OK: Growing Gorgeous Boys into Good Men, went extremely well by all reports. From the minute I heard her utter the line I didn't become a feminist to see men dishonoured and devalued, as they have been, I thought she would be great talent for the show. It's sad but true but a woman saying some of the same things that we say has so much more impact; men have been so devalued in the debate.

It's been good out here in the bush to have some time to myself; but the nights are quiet, too quiet, and I find myself hanging around Gunnedah doing odd jobs, catching up on the net. Reading Snow Falling on Cedars, which is just excellent, and in the silence and frustrated love that embitters and destroys the central character, who runs the newspaper on a tiny island, I read the same fears of my own growing silence. All the humanity that we embraced in some blurred, fateful, joyful ambush, our destiny in the fractured party that would never end, all ended badly. I've run out of firewood and the stars are very bright. I've been looking at a dog in the pet shop. The sun sets are beautiful and the locals often feral. Heading back to Sydney on Saturday, picking up Sam in Newcastle on the way. I don't want to go and I don't want to stay.

THE BIGGER STORY:

BLACKSBURG, Va., April 17 (Reuters) - Police and university authorities faced pressure on Tuesday to explain how a gunman apparently evaded detection after killing two people and then went on to kill 30 others two hours later in America's worst shooting rampage.
The man, whom police have not identified, killed himself in a classroom at Virginia Tech university after opening fire on students and staff during class in an apparently premeditated massacre on Monday morning.
Police said he appeared to have used chains to lock the doors and prevent terrified victims from escaping the building. Fifteen people were wounded, including those shot and students hurt jumping from windows in a desperate attempt to flee the gunfire.

Testing Melancholy




This is a picture of Carmel Tebbut on the night after the election; when I had dropped polly off at the airport through the poring rain; when the crisis in my own life had reached some terrible point; when the beaches that were the scene of such despair in my youth had come back four fold.

I am typing this on a very old computer in the house next to the emporium at tambar springs> the shift button is stuck so there will be no capitals> or it would seem full stops> there was a lot to be done< if only he could rectify his heart>

we were callous< and gloom laden< and depressed< as one might be but the night of euphoria< when there was no chance of labor losing< none at all< and i wished i was part of the tribe: that was all< longing to belong>

Tugging Half Way


This is a chimney through a view out the window in yet another hall, faded too far out as I fiddle on the camera phone; waking up in the country with an awful too little too late feeling, business in connection. I don't know how to rescue myself.
We came up close, were lost for words, lapsed into silence, staring at the floor with tears misting; as if anybody could understand. As if anyone would forgive the deep levels of stupidity. As if old fashioned depression wasn't something that just had to be borne; there wasn't a pill for everything.
Mad, not bad, they say; but we weren't certain; the images which had been so loud and proud; the purpose, when everything felt right, was gone; and he had the unabashed desire to get plastered; instead of staring thoughtfully out of windows and listening sceptically to story after story. God rescued me, they all say, and he tried to shrug off the feeling that he had been caught in some terrible cult. And what prime material he was. Infinite desire. He had always wanted to be saved by some exterior force.
THE BIGGER STORY:

Final chapter closes on Vonnegut
AP
New York: In books such as Slaughterhouse-Five, Cat's Cradle, and Hocus Pocus, Kurt Vonnegut mixed the bitter and funny with a touch of the profound.
Vonnegut, regarded by many critics as a key influence in shaping 20th-century American literature, died on Wednesday at 84. He had suffered brain injuries after a recent fall at his Manhattan home, said his wife, photographer Jill Krementz.
In a statement, Norman Mailer hailed Vonnegut as "a marvellous writer with a style that remained undeniably and imperturbably his own.
"I would salute him - our own Mark Twain. He was sort of like nobody else," said fellow author Gore Vidal. "Kurt was never dull."
Vonnegut's works - more than a dozen novels plus short stories, essays and plays - contained elements of social commentary, science fiction and autobiography.
Hours after his death, Slaughterhouse-Five had jumped to the top 10 on book sales site Amazon.com, while Cat's Cradle and the nonfiction A Man Without a Country had reached the top 40.
Vonnegut's longtime friend and manager, Donald Farber, said there would be no public memorial, only a private gathering of family and friends. He also said other Vonnegut books were likely to come out, but declined to offer specifics.
Protagonists
A self-described religious sceptic and freethinking humanist, Vonnegut used protagonists such as Billy Pilgrim (Slaughterhouse-Five) and Eliot Rosewater (God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater) as transparent vehicles for his points of view.
He lectured regularly, exhorting audiences to think for themselves and delighting in barbed commentary against the institutions he felt were dehumanising people.
"He was a man who combined a wicked sense of humour and sort of steady moral compass, who was always sort of looking at the big picture of the things that were most important," said Joel Bleifuss, editor of In These Times, a liberal magazine based in Chicago that featured Vonnegut articles.
Some of Vonnegut's books were banned and burned for alleged obscenity. He took on censorship as an active member of the PEN writers' aid group and the American Civil Liberties Union.
The American Humanist Association, which promotes individual freedom, rational thought and scientific scepticism, made him its honorary president.
Vonnegut said the villains in his books were never individuals, but culture, society and history, which he said were making a mess of the planet.
Depression
"I like to say that the 51st state is the state of denial," he said in 2005. "It's as though a huge comet were heading for us and nobody wants to talk about it.
We're just about to run out of petroleum and there's nothing to replace it."
Despite his commercial success, Vonnegut battled depression throughout his life, and in 1984, he attempted suicide with pills and alcohol, joking later about how he botched the job.
"I will say anything to be funny, often in the most horrible situations," Vonnegut, whose watery, heavy-lidded eyes and unruly hair made him seem to be in existential pain, once told a gathering of psychiatrists.
Critics ignored him at first, then denigrated his deliberately bizarre stories and disjointed plots as haphazardly written science fiction.
But his novels became cult classics, especially Cat's Cradle in 1963, in which scientists create "ice-nine," a crystal that turns water solid and destroys the earth.
Short articles
He retired from novel writing in his later years, but continued to publish short articles. He had a best-seller in 2005 with A Man Without a Country, a collection of his nonfiction, including jabs at the Bush administration ("upper-crust C-students who know no history or geography" and the uncertain future of the planet.
He called the book's success "a nice glass of champagne at the end of a life." Vonnegut, who had homes in Manhattan and the Hamptons in New York, adopted his sister's three young children after she died.
He also had three children of his own with his first wife, Jane Marie Cox, and later adopted a daughter, Lily, with his second wife, Krementz.
Vonnegut once said that of all the ways to die, he would prefer to go out in an airplane crash on the peak of Mount Kilimanjaro. He often joked about the difficulties of old age.
"When Hemingway killed himself he put a period at the end of his life; old age is more like a semicolon," Vonnegut said.
"My father, like Hemingway, was a gun nut and was very unhappy late in life. But he was proud of not committing suicide. And I'll do the same, so as not to set a bad example for my children."

The Formation of Words


This is me and Joyce at the Broadway shopping centre, having a burger before we go and see Wild Hogs; which was entertaining and pointless.
I'm in the country; each day settling down. There's not much I can do to change the past.
It's quiet, very quiet; and all the things we used to be; they've gone. The secret voices have corroded, the cheese-holed fabric of the cliffs; the silent places where we hide way up on the ridge; the quiet sound of the birds and the smell of smoke. I reach back and I say to you: come hither. There's no point dwelling in regret any longer. We reform and we reshape and we begin again; her kindly eyes; asking what I think of the news of the day. There's not enough coffee in the world to keep me awake; and suddenly I'm full of sleep and depressed dreams and a clutching hopelessness; and we bravely face what had become nothing but a terrible pretense.
THE BIGGER STORY:
ABC Radio:
Australian Prime Minister John Howard has condemned a suicide bombing inside the Iraqi parliament building in Baghdad.Two lawmakers and a parliamentary official died and 20 others were wounded -- around half of them MPs -- when a suicide bomber wearing an explosives belt and carrying a suitcase entered the parliament's cafeteria. Witnesses said the powerful blast took place shortly after parliament had adjourned for lunch. The bombing was carried out despite a massive US-Iraqi security crackdown which began in Baghdad two months ago.In a radio intervew Mr Howard called the attack "lethal, horrific and cowardly"."This surge (in violence) has got to be broken and be made a failure," he said.
Access to the Green Zone, which is home to the Iraqi government, the US mission and other foreign embassies, is heavily restricted, and visitors must pass through at least six checkpoints and several metal detectors.
"There is a strong indication that the suicide bomber was a bodyguard of one of the lawmakers," a senior security official said on condition of anonymity.

Caught Half Ways


They were still caught up there, under the lip of the concrete curve; and beneath them lapped some kind of enmity they would never understand. Already in Gunnedah; it's very quiet; there are plans and he didn't know, didn't care to know, why things had gone so horribly wrong.
These were new times; recovering from the future; never understanding why. Weren't you old enough to know better?
The symphony wasn't that well orchestrated; his own maladjustment a poor theme; internal dislike; all the usual shame guilt regret remorse just learn to live with yourself orchestration; that wasn't the way it was meant to be. Green everywhere. The drought's been washed away. He was walking out of the mist on the other side of the valley.
THE BIGGER STORY:

One of the few poems we ever learnt at school about the Australian countryside was written by an Englishman:
D. H. Lawrence
Snake
A snake came to my water-trough
On a hot, hot day, and I in pyjamas for the heat,
To drink there.
In the deep, strange-scented shade of the great dark carob-tree
I came down the steps with my pitcher
And must wait, must stand and wait, for there he was at the trough beforeme.
He reached down from a fissure in the earth-wall in the gloom
And trailed his yellow-brown slackness soft-bellied down, over the edge ofthe stone trough
And rested his throat upon the stone bottom,i o
And where the water had dripped from the tap, in a small clearness,
He sipped with his straight mouth,
Softly drank through his straight gums, into his slack long body,
Silently.
Someone was before me at my water-trough,
And I, like a second comer, waiting.
He lifted his head from his drinking, as cattle do,
And looked at me vaguely, as drinking cattle do,
And flickered his two-forked tongue from his lips, and mused a moment,
And stooped and drank a little more,
Being earth-brown, earth-golden from the burning bowels of the earth
On the day of Sicilian July, with Etna smoking.
The voice of my education said to meHe must be killed,
For in Sicily the black, black snakes are innocent, the gold are venomous.
And voices in me said,
If you were a man
You would take a stick and break him now, and finish him off.
But must I confess how I liked him,
How glad I was he had come like a guest in quiet, to drink at my water-trough
And depart peaceful, pacified, and thankless,
Into the burning bowels of this earth?
Was it cowardice, that I dared not kill him? Was it perversity, that I longed to talk to him? Was it humility, to feel so honoured?
I felt so honoured.
And yet those voices:
If you were not afraid, you would kill him!
And truly I was afraid, I was most afraid,
But even so, honoured still more
That he should seek my hospitality
From out the dark door of the secret earth.
He drank enough
And lifted his head, dreamily, as one who has drunken,
And flickered his tongue like a forked night on the air, so black, Seeming to lick his lips,
And looked around like a god, unseeing, into the air,
And slowly turned his head,
And slowly, very slowly, as if thrice adream,Proceeded to draw his slow length curving round
And climb again the broken bank of my wall-face.
And as he put his head into that dreadful hole,
And as he slowly drew up, snake-easing his shoulders, and entered farther, A sort of horror, a sort of protest against his withdrawing into that horrid black hole,
Deliberately going into the blackness, and slowly drawing himself after,
Overcame me now his back was turned.
I looked round, I put down my pitcher, I picked up a clumsy log
And threw it at the water-trough with a clatter.
I think it did not hit him,But suddenly that part of him that was left behind convulsed in undignified haste.Writhed like lightning, and was gone
Into the black hole, the earth-lipped fissure in the wall-front,
At which, in the intense still noon, I stared with fascination.
And immediately I regretted it.
Ithought how paltry, how vulgar, what a mean act!
I despised myself and the voices of my accursed human education.
And I thought of the albatross
And I wished he would come back, my snake.
For he seemed to me again like a king,
Like a king in exile, uncrowned in the underworld,Now due to be crowned again.
And so, I missed my chance with one of the lordsOf life.And I have something to expiate:A pettiness.
Taormina, 1923

Cosmic Dust


This is the view from Redfern at dawn, where they had crouched under the rolls of concrete and the dawn took everything away, the streets already busy.

I'm in the country, cows crossing the road; a clinging consciousness that just wanted to expunge all the cloying past; to make good again.

They had become things they never wanted to be; the emotional life of a dirty laundry basket, he said dismissively of an English author; while he took his own laundry to the local hotel.

THE BIGGER STORY:

FROM LES MURRAY ON THE BORDERS

http://pandora.nla.gov.au/pan/37111/20060828/www.lesmurray.org/recent.html

That hawk, clinging to the eaves of the wind,
beating its third wing, its tail
isn't mine to sell.
And here is more like the space
that needs to exist aound an image.
This cloud-roof country reminds me
of the character of people
who first encountered roses in soap.

Being Arty


This is the light playing through the window of my local cafe, A Little On The Side. It's probably my favourite cafe in the area; and wouldn't exist unless it had such dedicated followers because it's hard to find.
I'm heading up the country today; Henrietta is off in the bush and Sammy is going over to his mom's. None of them seem too interested in coming up the country - city kids, he sighed with exasperation.
But I'm looking forward to getting out of town; rebuilding; starting again for the umpteen millionth time. Have to do the radio show on the way out of town; meeting up with Graeme and going out from here. There's lots to do and not much time to do it in. I feel much more stable, coming back to normal. There isn't any poetry in the loft; but the days are stretching out away from disaster; and much of my life is still spent rebuilding from the past. Onwards and upwards.
THE BIGGER STORY:
Cruise captain blames currents for sinking

The captain of the sunken Sea Diamond cruise ship blamed currents off a Greek island for last week's accident, state-run television reported today.
Two French tourists have been missing since Thursday, when the ship struck rocks and eventually sank off the island of Santorini. All the other people on board - 1,154 passengers and 391 crew, according to operator Louis Cruise Lines - were rescued.
State-run NET television quoted from what it said were excerpts of the captain's deposition to a public prosecutor on the island of Naxos, blaming currents off the volcanic island for the accident.
"I felt the ship, which had been on a normal course, slip to the right because of sea currents," NET quoted him as saying. "I gave the order for a full turn left. But there was not enough time for the ship to respond." AP.

Crossroads and Consequence


We stood at the crossroads. I'm trying to finish it in a hurry and will never write about this topic again.
Here's a bit of it:
CONSEQUENCE

The changes were not accepted with good heart by the court; and this reluctance to accept reform was no more clearly evidenced than at their great tribal gathering in 2006, the National Family Law Conference held in Perth.
The retiring Justice Richard Chisholm, who had done much to set the tone of the court, showed how little regret for past practice was in play when he declared of the reforms:
"The ultimate goal has to remain the same: to do what's best for kids. So, we might see a lot of change in the way a case is presented, but the outcome should be the same as under old system."

On the final day of the conference, the Hon Richard Chisholm started the morning session with a song about the Family Law Act amendments.He sang with gusto to the tune of "On Top of Old Smokey" (better known as the "I Lost My Poor Meatball" song):
"It seems rather blokey the men won the fights
but now they all tell us
it's about childrens' rights ...
We struggle to read it,
we mutter and moan,
by the time that we've read it,
the kids have left home ...
I studied one section, got it into my head,
but it only told me what another section said..."
The ditty caused some offence; and indeed it is impossible to imagine a family court judge singing a song that ridiculed mothers without causing immense outrage - much less applause, as in this case.
Legal News Service CCH went on to report that Chisolm said it was the job of the court and practitioners to apply the law and not be guessing what government wanted: "We know quite a bit of what the government intended, but then we have the legislation".
No truer words, of course, as critics had pointed out. Male litigants who had appeared before him were often critical; but a lifetime in the shrouds of importance did not lend to humility. The power play between the various branches of government was never more clearly displayed.
Chisholm cautioned practitioners to be careful about making the intention of government and the law the same thing.
"At times of crises there's a lot to be said about orthodoxy; it's our job to administer the law."
(Reference: 27 October 2006: Hot potatoes, obesity and politics in family law reform. By Melinda Chiew, CCH senior writer.)

Free Floating Anxiety


There's problems everywhere, the computer not working first thing in the morning and endless frustration over just about everything, headache in the corner over one eye. Heading off to the country on Tuesday, looking forward to getting away. The kids don't seem very interested. I'm right, says Sam, and I guess I don't blame them. They're teenagers and the city is full of opportunity. We are regularly falling behind; and I feel in the same place at the same time; consciousness wired to insult.
Nothing works, that's what's driving me crazy. The dads website has locked out all the administrators and not even Jeremy the web master can work out why, seeing as he also is locked out. There are other problems; shame guilt regret remorse kicks in bigtime sometimes; and I wonder why, why was I so damned stupid.
Been hanging out with Joyce a lot. We've been to see Becoming Jane, which we both enjoyed, loved the atmosphere, the English landscape, the colouring, the characteristation. The woman who played Jane, from the Devil Wears Prada, was great. Then we saw Woody Allen's Scoop yesterday; and it was just a pointless exercise; all the actors miscast and really, what was the bloody point of that? All that money it would have cost to make; and really it carried you nowhere and transformed you no how. It's another busy day, but the last day before the holidays. Yeeh Hah!!
THE BIGGER STORY:
WASHINGTON -- Discontent with President Bush, the war in Iraq and politicians in Washington is playing out in the dollars and cents of the 2008 presidential campaign, where fundraising by Democratic candidates has far outstripped that of Republicans so far this year.
A new AP-Ipsos poll lays out underlying trends: More voters are identifying themselves as Democrats; regard for the Democratic-controlled Congress is on the increase; and approval for the overall job that President Bush is doing and for his handling of the war in Iraq are stuck in the cellar.
While even Republican candidates have raised impressive amounts of cash, Democratic donors have been increasingly energized by dissatisfaction with the status quo and by the notion that their party has a shot at reclaiming the White House.